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its not like [30 Oct 2007|01:48am] anyone will even read this so lets just start. i vent. i guess i dont really have a bestfriend, well i do, idk so what other way get things out. i miss him more then anything. and by him i mean luke. i know he has made mistakes and who hasnt. maybe just not as major as his. and totaling me car and almost killing me, is major, and how stupid can i be to just want my boyfriend back. i spent 4 years of my life with him and he left me there in my car after hitting me head on. as if it was nothing. the guy i swore i would marry just left me there im not even mad about my car although it was my favorit thing ever im more upset he left me. ive never been more hurt mentally and physically. and why do i miss him and wish things could just go back. and why do i give a fuck. while he got to pick rehab over jail which i think is not one bit fair and he should be in jail right now although we all know he needs rehab. i really think he should have gottten both. AND YET I STILL HATE HIM BEING GONE! i hate it it isnt fair. he promises and he crys and he swears he didnt do it on purpose and hes going to change just for me and we are going to work things out. just for me just for us. so we can go on stronger then ever. but i cant. no matter how much i love him cause my family and my friends would NEVER let it happen or welcome him into the family like they used to. and its hard knowing that it can never go back to that was becuase of one night. and its not that i can ever let him know any of this, not that he would ever even check this cause he doesnt know it exist. i miss him. i miss him so much it hurts. it hurts my heart and my stomache every second of the day and all i want is for him to hold me and tell me its okay and that he has really changed this time.and then have everything just work out perfectly. i hope by the end of his 4 months in rehab maybe ill have changed my mind or be more used tot he fact that he isnt in my life anymore. god i love him. i miss him. i want to hold him. i want him back the one that i know. not the drunk. mine. my luke weaver. no one elses but mine. i cant let 4 years just be done like this. but at the same time i have to.. i hate this feeling. it makes me sick. 1 notes Write.

P.S [27 Nov 2006|11:05pm] P.s to the previous post.... see this bellow... how good am i? do you thing my mom will get the hint? thats totally the desktop pic on our computer... teehee:) makes me smile everytime:) Write.

CHILL [27 Nov 2006|10:56pm] ugh uggghhh uggggghhhhhh uggggggggghhhhhhhh booooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo. i think to much. Write.

[21 Nov 2006|12:00am] I feel bad for this guy on made. it must suck to be him. all people do is make fun of him:(... and im dead seriously that i really feel bad, i can barley watch this show sometimes. i dont know why i have been updating this its so old and no one cares. but oh well.... mmm today work was actually ok. i closed my department alone which sucks but i decided it was only going to go by slow if i made it. instead i basically helped costumers all night and was like nicer then i have ever been. haha which is sad to say. but i liked it alot. and its fun playing witht he little kids that come shopping with their moms. and its totally allowed since its the kids department and we have to make the costumers happy. so why not destract their kids while they go and shop! sounds good to me! p.s my leg feel weird! WHAT IF IT FALLS OFF!!!!!!!!!!!! Write.

juicy [19 Nov 2006|04:10am] i work and listen to expand my mind wider then others. maybe outside the lines of everyone elses education. Education isnt always what you have to learn in school cause lets face we all know im not down with that, i cant spell for shit and i cant sit still in class. but open your mind to new things outside the normal goal of society and find more then just whats in a grab and reach distance. expand your mind. "Knowledge and wisdom And understanding Possessed by gods Transferred to man in A script of a book A scripture that looks Like a Biblical writing Inviting a hook Of a song sing along with a strong Subliminal Message divesting all men from Criminal Acts of the Devil Revealed and reveled Designed to recline the mind to lower level With no spiritual level. Read the Holy Koran Or the Bible Because it's liable To be a revival for the weak who seek power it'll bring Infallible power... Lost in the source And praising the dollar Whether your faith is Christ or Allah The knowledge of God Will teach one thing The dollar is moot and Knowledge is king..." its 3 in the morning and im obviously crazy right now! but really... its goodshit. 2 notes Write.

... [17 Sep 2006|01:40am] damnit. Write.

[22 May 2006|08:55am] Im sick ... no school for me today.. lame. and im tierd.but i cant wait to see luke today :)... and i cant wait... till next saturday... julia+luke+ingrid+tommy+angelica+bobby= A really fun time at six flags! even though we should be going to disneyland but nooooo... ingrid just HASo go to six flags!oh well.. diney lands SOOOOO NEXT! why? BECUASE DISNEY LANDS THE BOMB.COM AND IT WAAAAY COOLER THAN SIXFLAGS! why? maybe because they have talking giant mice running around every where and cartoons come to life! except this all psounds a little creepy! heheh whatever! disney land still wins!!! Write.

! [01 May 2006|12:42pm] everyone on LJ suck. NO COMMENTS NO LOVE FORME! borring the way. last night at work we got an ice cream thrown at us. luckily it hit the wall. HA! 1 notes Write.

[29 Apr 2006|05:36pm] im obsessed with her space holiday....i am Write.

oh yeah [27 Apr 2006|07:02pm] ifyou signup on www.whosonmypage.com it tracks whos on your myspace.. so you can see whosbeen lurkingon it... YUP! except i think you canonly tll f the otherpeople haveit too but imnot sure.itsbeen worlking for me ! SO YEAaaHHHHH BOY! Write.

so uhmm [14 Apr 2006|06:32pm] julia needs to stop getting mad and throwing sidekicks... because now julia has no phone and has to wait for the new one to come in the mail but it doesnt come till tuesday.... what a burn. 4 notes Write.

iii [05 Apr 2006|07:44pm] i have a boyfriend. and sometimes i get annoyed when i don't get my way. this is one of those times. Write.

YEY! [21 Mar 2006|02:15pm] IM 17 TODAY!!!!!!!!!!!!! yeaaahhhhhh PAMONA HERE WE COME! Write.

fun [08 Mar 2006|05:23pm] so i havnt updated since i got kicked outof the casa and been lving with my friends for a while now. and im usually just in my sidekick and i doont know how to update from there. anyone know how?o dont think it even gives me the option to. anywaaaaayyyys im pretty sure i have the most amazing boyfriend ever. i love him to death. i love my friends sooo much ther so nice to let me be staying with them... my birthday is the 21st of this month! yeee!!!!ill be 17! fina freakin lee!! sooooo excited.. i know im still a youngin... sad.. i know... but yeah.. im tierd and have work in a cupple hours... i need to go do homework until then... loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeyou LJers Write.

[17 Jan 2006|10:00pm] ok sooo this is only for my cousin. i know your going to sign into this and read my shit. soooo.. i WILL BE changeing my PW to my LJ and Myspace so you stop signing into MY SHIT! and then going on yours adding MY friends its starting to creep people out and me out too. you dont know them and your like 13 years old.. go make friends your age. creepo. and after this entry EVERYTHING on here WILL be friends only so you will have no way ofgetting into my shit n e more and reading and looking atg other people and being a creepy lurker. -------------------------------------------------------------------- on a different note. I GOT A SIDEKICK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 2 notes Write.

[07 Jan 2006|06:34pm] OH MY GOOODIES.... if anyone goes to cold stone and gets a waffel bowl thats burnt... ther are few. know that Julia mutha effin king made that shiiiiiiit.... yeah muh fugga p.s..... FUCK GUYS WHO HIT GIRLS! Write.

[05 Jan 2006|08:10pm] did anyone see that episode of made where the white girl wants to be a rapper? ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhmyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. home girl is SOOOOOO FUNNY! what a wierdo! 2 notes Write.

[03 Jan 2006|05:52pm] mmmmm........ lets see... i started learning center today, and i swear every chola in eastlake is in ther starrine me down. mmmm what else? i need to cash my paycheck. i need to go shopping. iiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii need to find out me schedule and i better not have to work friday night. or saturday night... or cold stone will be burnt down. haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa mmm i love angel and luke. and i miss inger. and i love erika. i love love love them all and all of you so yeaaaaahh... form last entry... things are going alot better Write.

[02 Jan 2006|03:56pm] seriously fuck you. 2 notes Write.

[26 Dec 2005|12:45pm] SHOPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! right about now. 4 notes Write.

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